I glanced at her and took my glasses
off--they were still singing. They buzzed
like a locust on the coffee table and then
ceased. Her voice belled forth, and the
sunlight bent. I felt the ceiling arch, and
knew that nails up there took a new grip
on whatever they touched. "I am your own
way of looking at things," she said. "When
you allow me to live with you, every
glance at the world around you will be
a sort of salvation." And I took her hand.
Fresco of the muses from the Palazzo Schifanoia in Italy |
Beatrice is that you? I haven't seen you since you were eight! |
And it wasn't just any writing class, it was the writing class that would make or break my writing career. The writing class where on the very first day I was told I'd never be more than mediocre at best, that I was a waste of the teacher's time, that I had no talent or skill with which she could work. The rest of the class, however, were praised as gifted writers who would no doubt shower her with their sweet nectar of prose over the course of the semester. At this point we hadn't written anything yet, she just somehow sniffed out their talent and my inferiority.
So when one of the future Nobel/Pulitzer/Booker prize winners asked how I got on with the homework assignment the leaden legs of dreamtime immobilized me. I didn't have an essay to turn in. I didn't even have my lap top with me to pull up something I'd written previously to pass off as the assignment. I debated racing to the computer lab to throw a few words on the page so I'd have something to turn in but I knew the professor would rip it to shreds, proving I was a terrible writer. I could feign sudden illness and skip class, during which time I was sure she'd ridicule me for being too much of a coward to show up or attempt to do the assignment. Or I could show up and admit I didn't have anything to turn in which meant being present for said public humiliation.
Fortunately my psyche chose another option: I woke up. It took an hour of deep breathing and meditation to calm me enough that I could begin to drift back to sleep. But somewhere in that threshold state between being fully awake and fully asleep, my muse appeared in the form of a smiling lanky Englishman. I knew he was my muse because he introduced himself as such and said he was there to give me gifts designed to banish my inner critic and encourage me on the writing path.
Huh? |
I'm sure these things symbolize . . . well something. The writing teacher/inner critic part of the dream was easy to figure out in hindsight. The owl's feather, and even the bicycle I sorta get. The saxophone and especially the pecan have me stumped.
Richard Armitage (aka the actor who played my muse) |
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In related news, if you're looking for a safe place to explore your own unique "way of looking at things" this upcoming retreat I'm leading might be for you.
Writing from the Heart
A Weekend of Writing and Spiritual Practice
6 pm, Friday, October 5 through 2 pm, Sunday, October 7
Join
us as we breathe new life into our writing and prayer during this weekend
retreat. Explore how spiritual practices
open our minds to allow the words of our hearts to flow in our writing. Be encouraged by a community of kindred
spirits as we gather to hear and share our stories. Learn take-home tools to allow you to
continue to engage the spirit in your writing.
Non-Residential
Rate of $175.00 (retreat
and meals)
*Limited
overnight accommodations available.
For more information or to register contact Deeanna Burleson
The Serendipity House
Phone: 703-303-6143
The Serendipity House
"A gathering place for creative and healing arts."
Phone: 703-303-6143
116 Charlotte Street, Washington, North Carolina 27889
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